Chapter 3: Resurrection
Beneath the Weight of Water | 1980s Mexican American Women’s Fiction
Previously:
Bruno’s violence pushed Lucia past the silence that had kept her trapped. Abuela excused him, the house turned against her, and Lucia did the one thing she had been trained not to do: she called Matteo. Leaving did not make her safe yet. It only made the bruise visible.
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Matteo
And whoever saves a life, it is considered as if he saved an entire world.
~Mishnah Sanhedrin 4:5
Matteo flexed his fingers, released them, then gripped the leather-wrapped steering wheel again. He drew a slow breath and he let it go even slower. Stillness thickened between them, heavy with everything he didn’t say. Self-control was something his grandfather expected, but Matteo had perfected it far beyond what his family imagined.
Even so, something about Lucia’s presence had always unsettled him. And now, the sight of her pain pushed hard against his discipline.
The fresh welts on her skin spoke of a coward’s rage. A violation of her. A violation of her dignity. A violation of basic humanity. Unacceptable. Unforgivable.
He forced his breath into a steady rhythm, jaw set, shoulders locked, his pulse refusing to speed up. She had done what he’d asked; she had called. Finally.
He remembered the moment she’d climbed into the car, her posture folding inward. Her shoulders were tense; her limbs were rigid. He recognized that tight, contained stillness. She was holding herself together by inches.
Ice. A gas station emerged ahead, its blue canopy sharp against the heat-hazed asphalt. He pulled in and returned minutes later with an ice pack.
As he handed it to her, their fingers brushed for a heartbeat. The thought of taking her hand rose unbidden, but she avoided touch in moments like this. Which was why he pulled back, protecting the trust between them. She opened her eyes, set the ice pack on her cheek, and said nothing. He gave her space, remembering how often he longed for the same from his family.
He drove toward the coast because she loved long drives. The salt breeze slipped through the window, easing the tension in her face. Above the cliffs, seagulls drifted in slow, weightless arcs. Surfers cut clean lines through the swells. A horn blared from the opposite lane, dragging him out of his thoughts.
The car came to rest beneath the yellow light of a street lamp at Torrey Pines Beach. Lucia’s eyes fluttered open and met his. She looked small, wary, as if expecting another blow.
Something inside him broke, and it forced him to draw a ragged breath. He felt the urge to make empty promises, but he knew too well the betrayal in hollow words. His doctors and family had made countless promises, but none had spared him from what came next.
He stepped out, fingers curled at his side for a moment. The salty breeze filled his lungs, and he let out a sigh. When he opened her door, her whole body went taut, as if, in a breath, the space between them could tilt from safety to danger. He knew she might pull away, yet she needed steadiness more than distance. She allowed him to help her out of the car, uncertainty shadowing her face.
She bit her lip. Her breath snagged, a tremor undoing her before sobs ripped through her, wracking her body. Heat flooded his chest as her breath hitched against his collarbone, pulling him back into his own skin. It wasn’t fear. He had felt this kind of exhaustion, the kind carried by someone who stood strong for far too long. His arms tightened around her, steadying them both.
“Abuela doesn’t love me,” she managed between broken sobs. “She only took me because of Johnny… because she couldn’t have him otherwise.”
He held her while truths broke loose, one by one. Her fingers clutched the fabric of his shirt, her breath hot and uneven, as though he were her lifeline.
“I look like him!” She jerked away from him, crossing her arms as if she were throwing her armor back on. Yet she looked like a gust could topple her. “Abuela doesn’t love me because she sees him whenever she looks at me.”
“Lucia.” His voice was warm, steady, even though his chest ached. He had learned to conceal his weakness, but he still lived in a body that had turned traitor, stealing ballet and the future he’d trained for his entire life. A rush of helplessness cinched his ribs as he raked his fingers through his hair.
“My father! I look like my father.” She forced the words out between raw, broken sobs. “I’m just a breathing, living scar. A reminder of her loss. And the man she blames for her daughter’s death.”
He saw her knees begin to buckle, but for a second, he kept still. Catching her would cross a line she had made clear. But allowing her to collapse was unthinkable, so he caught her before she hit the asphalt.
Her weight folded into him, and the shock stole his breath. The trust in her emotional surrender landed harder than he was ready for.
“You are not alone. Not today, not tomorrow. Not ever.” The rawness in his words tightened something low in his chest, revealing a truth he wasn’t ready to examine.
Step by step, he steadied her from the parking lot to the beach. He lowered himself onto the sand and guided her onto his lap. The moment his body settled around her, he felt it. This was too far. He knew it. His body knew it.
The rhythmic crashing of the waves filled the silence. No rush, no words. Breathing in the heat of her body, he felt younger than he wanted to be. Unprepared. He wished he were wiser and knew what to do. Tightening his arms around her, he pressed a kiss to the crown of her head.
All summer he had written her restless letters he should not have sent, then read her responses until the paper thinned. He had told himself it was nothing. He had a girlfriend. Friends with benefits who made no demands. A family that asked for too much.
Infatuation, he understood. Desire, he could sate. This was a want so strong, it became a surrender. Desperate. Unforgivable. Irrevocable. Love. The moment he admitted his feelings, he knew he couldn’t tolerate silence. Action would follow, and the thought of it scraped at the edges of his composure.
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~Fyodor Dostoevsky
All summer, Matteo wrote letters he knew he should not send, and now Lucia’s pain forces him to admit she has reached the part of himself his family trained him to guard.
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Author’s note
In the 1980s, no social media threads, constant essays, or shared public language taught young men about healthy masculinity, boundaries, emotional responsibility, or how to help without taking charge.
Family, community, faith, class, and whatever version of manhood their surroundings rewarded shaped much of what they understood about masculinity.
That matters in this chapter because Matteo sees Lucia hurt, and he wants to help. But he believes helping her should not mean taking possession of her choices.
Matteo does not have a script for this kind of care. He does not know how to help her yet. He only knows he must not make Lucia’s pain about himself.
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Since I'm writing so much, I don't read other stories anymore. So, thankfully you have these in an audio stream so I can listen to them when doing my domestics. Finally got round to listening and I'm being sucked in :-)
I again feel so fortunate reading Lucia’s story. My grandparents and my great grandparents loved me in a way that Lucia never got to know.
Hearing as Lucia collapsed, safe in Matteo’s arms feels safe. And yet, the foreshadowing of something being wrong with Matteo has me hoping that Lucia is not going to have her heart shattered by whatever this news is.
Having that safe space to cry, to truly and deeply cry is a blessing. It really felt as if I was there, sharing a moment in the arc
of their lives together…